Maria's Story Page 2

  Almost all Russian minibuses are old and dilapidated and have had years of abuse, and DIY botched repairs. Together with the appalling state of many Moscow roads, most journeys, however short, are incredibly uncomfortable. The suspension on most minibuses simply does not exist, thumping through and bouncing over the dozens of potholes that litter most routes causes you to tightly grip the seat rail in front and hold on for all your worth. Engines snarl and roar and sound as though it would be the minibus’ last kilometre, ever. Gears scrape and crunch, handbrakes almost never work and no one has ever heard of a catalytic converter. Taking a Russian minibus is not for the faint-hearted and almost no foreigner, ever, takes a minibus anywhere. If I had a choice nor would I, but I didn’t have a car and there was no other way, apart from a long walk, to the nearest metro.

  I suffered in silence as the minibus rattled and rocked its way to Prospect Vernadskogo metro station. Thankfully most minibuses stop at the metro stations without being requested and so I got off with almost all the other passengers and followed the trail of huddled bodies down the steps into Moscow’s metro system - probably one of the best and most efficient underground systems in the world.

  Unlike the London underground, where annoying neon signs inform you that the next train to Ealing Broadway would be in approximately five days time, the Moscow metro trains run without fail every two or three minutes. The cost of ten metro tickets is fifty roubles (equivalent to about one pound), which is the equivalent to about ten UK pence a ride to anywhere in Moscow. Whether you are going one stop, or from one end of Moscow to the other, yes, believe it or not, one ride is just ten pence. Whenever I returned to London I would always be horrified at the cost, the inefficiency and the crazy zone system of the London Underground. As with many things in England, the Underground is extremely expensive and exceedingly unreliable. Not so in Moscow; the metro is a wonder of modern technology. Not only that, many of the metro stations are simply awesome. Brilliantly designed, beautifully decorated and wonderfully kept, the Moscow metro system is a stunning tourist attraction by itself and can be ranked alongside the Red Square, the Kremlin and the Bolshoi.

  And so, I bought my block of ten tickets from the sorrowful looking cashier, passed one of the many thousands of Moscow’s wretched beggars, standing silently with head bowed and an outstretched grubby hand holding a few miserable kopeks (100 kopeks = 1 rouble), and boarded the train that had just pulled in. After a while you don’t even notice the beggars; their faces and their despair. Another one of a thousand, maybe two thousand, it is impossible to give to everyone so, like many, I didn’t give to any; I quickly walked passed them all, trying not to look at their faces, not even considering that they were human-beings and suffering terribly. After the first few weeks living in a world of poverty and deprivation, I became so accustomed to beggars on every street corner, in every metro station, outside every supermarket - to me they no longer existed. There were not drug addicts, alcoholics or mentally ill, but Moscow’s beggars are soldiers whose legs had been blown off in Chechnya, or men and women old enough to be my grandparents, or those unfortunately born disabled or facially disfigured, or the destitute - Moscow was full of them, all unable to survive in a normal world and all on the streets begging for survival. They were all begging for their next hot meal - not for their next fix or bottle of spirits.

  I hated myself for walking past, for not even looking at them but I knew I had neither the money nor the ability to help. What could I do? I often imagined myself a multi-millionaire paying someone to travel the metro system day in day out handing out enough money for a hot meal and better clothing to every beggar they would come across. Or perhaps setting up a sanctuary where the destitute, the disabled and the elderly could get warm and eat a good meal. I completely understood that this really wasn’t the answer - giving like this would never ever be enough, but surely it would give someone, somewhere a little comfort, even for a day? I so wanted to do something for these people; they were not addicts or ill, but normal people blighted by Russia’s corruption.

  Being the second biggest oil producer in the world, Russia should be one of the wealthiest countries in the world, but greed is colossal and most of the money the Russian government allocates to the poor and needy never reaches them. It is filtered away down the bureaucratic line into the pockets of everyone but those that need it the most. There are very few Russian charities in Russia, no one really cares for, or bothers about anyone else apart from themselves. No one trusts the banks, the government, the police, the system and everyone’s preoccupation is surviving themselves, protecting their own wealth. No one gives to Russian charities as they believe, and often rightly so, that the money will not go to the cause but into the pockets of the charity directors. There is little accountability and an enormous amount of corruption and crime. As a Westerner with different morals and ethics I was shocked to the core when I saw an ambulance, lights flashing, siren screaming, struggling to get through a queue of traffic. No one moved; the ambulance just sat there in traffic and no one cared. This, for me, summed up Russia’s attitude to others; they just don’t care. There is no country anywhere else in the world whose inhabitants ignore the cries of the ambulance. I remembered an interesting documentary on Russian television, which Inna translated for me. It concerned a newly married couple who sat in their car in front of an ambulance, ignoring its sirens and flashing lights and continuous banging of the horn. They were in traffic on their way home and didn’t want to lose their place in the queue. They refused to move or to let the ambulance pass, all the way back to their apartment they sat in slow moving traffic directly in front of the ambulance. Just as they turned up outside their apartment, the woman’s mother rushed to meet the ambulance, crying and screaming as to why the ambulance had taken so long. The ambulance was visiting that same couple’s son who had suddenly fallen critically ill.

  There are, of course, a few charities operating in Russia, mainly foreign and few and far between. These are generally frowned upon by the Russian government. The Russian government still does not like foreign aid; it is an old communist mind-set that Russia and its people are too proud to accept help from others. They believe they should support their own, even though they won’t and don’t and that most of the money is stolen by the same people that originally allocated it. With the huge amount of resources coming from oil production, Russia should have the best hospitals and health care, the best schools, the best pensions and infrastructure in the world. But they have the worst because no one cares for anyone and the huge amount of wealth is quickly siphoned away and stolen. And so the streets are littered with beggars and the destitute and I, along with most others, walk quickly past, head bowed, fiddling with my metro ticket or pretending to make a mobile phone call.

  The metro from Prospect Vernadskogo to Chistye Prudy wasn’t that busy either, most people at that time of the afternoon were travelling out from the city centre and not into the city as I was, but from Chistye Prudy leaving the city to Alekseevskaya, I knew the metro was going to be packed. However, amazingly I managed to find a seat, took off my thick gloves, took out my mobile phone and started to text Inna telling her I was on my way. There was no signal but we would soon be travelling for a short time over the Moskva River and I would press the ‘send’ button as we stopped at the new Vorobyovy Gory station above ground. The first stop after Prospect Vernadskogo was Universitet (Moscow State University). I knew the route well and sat huddled over the phone, typing my text. I vaguely heard the recording informing us that the doors were closing and the next stop was Vorobyovy Gory, and felt the train start to move. I didn’t look up. No one looks up once they have found a seat. They engross themselves in a book, or play with their phone, or pretend to sleep - anything but look up. If they looked up they might see an elderly frail passenger, gripping the rail, struggling to support themselves as the carriage rocked backwards and forwards, and no one wants to give up their seat.

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p; I was the same. It was a long journey and seats were rare and, even though I was relatively young and fit, I didn’t fancy standing for the whole journey. I kept myself pre-occupied with my phone, staring at it hoping no one needed a seat. I had been in Moscow six months and was behaving like the Russians, struggling to survive and only thinking about myself.

  A few seconds after the train has pulled away from the platform I felt the presence of someone standing directly in front of me. I didn’t want to look up but somehow felt compelled to see who it was that was so close and invading my personal space.

  “Pa-a-da-a-y-te na pro-pi-ta-a-nie.” (Please, give me a few roubles for food).

  Reluctantly I looked up to see a man of about 30 years old looking down at me. He had fairly short mousey coloured hair, was clean shaven with about a three inch scar diagonally running across his chin. His face appeared quite kind, but his eyes looked sad and distressed and vacant, as though he knew this was his empty, heartless miserable destiny. He wore a white, torn and slightly soiled vest and out from each side of his vest were two short stumps where his arms should have been. The right stump ended just above the elbow, the left a couple of inches below his shoulder. There were jagged scars on each stump - he was not disabled because of an abnormality at birth but from an accident, probably while in the army and probably, considering his age and the fact that he wore combat trousers, from the war in Chechnya.

  He smiled and looked down and nodded at a small bag hanging from his neck. “Pa-a-da-a-y-te na pro-pi-ta-a-nie.”

  I wanted to know what had happened to him and how he survived those horrific injuries. What kind of life was he living? Where did he go once his day’s begging had ended? How long had he been begging on the metro like this and who looked after him? Did he have a family, children, wife, mother, father? What drove him to travel the dirty metro every day begging to survive? Was there nothing else he could do? I thought about all the hundreds of beggars I have seen on Moscow’s streets, all with a story to tell, all leading such miserable, desolate lives, all struggling to survive. Every day, day in day out, they stand and beg and hope for mercy, but every day no mercy comes, their lives never change, their destiny remains exactly the same.

  I rummaged in my pocket for some change and placed it into his small bag. He nodded, said; “Spasiba” (thank you) and moved on down the carriage saying the same thing to the other passengers. I watched as most of the passengers in my carriage remained with their heads bowed, pre-occupied with their books or pretending to sleep, not looking up, not acknowledging this desperate human being standing in front of them. The few passengers that did look up said no, and quickly looked down again. He wouldn’t plead, he just moved onto the next person and the next and the next, making his way slowly down the carriage. As the train stopped at the station he jumped off, walked down the platform and jumped back on at the next carriage. I looked through the murky glass windows of the carriage’s connecting doors and could just about make out his unusual shape as he made his way down that carriage. This was his life, jumping from carriage to carriage displaying his disability in the hope of just enough sympathy to buy his next meal.

  Change! I felt disgusted and horrified with myself. Change! I probably only gave him 15 roubles, equivalent to about 30 UK pence. Why didn’t I give more? I could afford to have given him more. Why was I so afraid of giving? Why didn’t I give him 100 or 200 roubles? I had the money in my wallet. My excuse to myself was that if I gave him a hundred roubles, I would have to give every beggar a hundred roubles, but I didn’t give to anyone anyway. Why did I feel resentment at giving when I knew there was no alternative for people like him? Unlike England, Russia will not make him comfortable, Russia will not pay for nurses and helpers, dress him, feed him, and find him work. Unlike England, beggars are forced onto the streets because of their infirmity, age, helplessness and not because of their addiction or illness. I would never give to anyone on the streets in England because I knew it would more than likely go towards their next bottle of gin or fix, but in Moscow money goes for food and clothing and shelter. If you are homeless in Moscow you are homeless; there is no such thing as shelters for the homeless, charity soup kitchens or decent state support. You fight and fend for yourself the best way you can, or die. It is as simple as that. As I watched him disappear I wondered why I couldn’t have done more. What had stopped me opening my wallet and giving him more? My own selfishness and self interest? My own greed? Was I really that selfish that even one pound was too much?

  Changing trains at Chistye Prudy is chaotic as it is a junction between three main lines and at that time of the evening everyone was going home. Like the minibuses, everyone surges onto the carriage, giving little space for passengers to get off. There is no polite waiting to one side as there is on the London Underground, in Moscow you have to battle your way off the carriage through the hoards of people battling to squeeze themselves on. Politeness and manners are very low on the Russian list of social priorities, even less so out on the streets, in the metros and on the buses. Because the metros are so cheap and so reliable, millions and millions of people use them each and every day. Apart from the main metro stations at the major tourist sites, most of the signs are written in cyrillic, the Russian alphabet, and therefore an extremely daunting and confusing place for most foreigners. There are no metro maps on the actual platforms themselves, so you have to make sure you know where you are going and what line to take in advance and before you buy your tickets. Big signs in the centre of the metro station display the list of stations on that particular line, as well as on the tunnel walls facing each platform, but you have to know where you are going and know the destination’s name in cyrillic. What is even more confusing is that connecting stations have different names and there are even a couple of stations with the same names. For example the British Embassy is on metro Smolenskaya, but there are two Smolenskayas, both near each other but one on the blue line and the other on the purple line. Depending upon which one you get off results in either a two minute walk down a side street to the Embassy or a ten minute walk and suicidal dash across a busy six lane highway. But once you get used to it, the Moscow metro is a quick, efficient and an extremely cheap way of travelling throughout the city. Bar a rare emergency or an occasional breakdown, you can generally plan your time from arrival to destination within a few minutes. Trains run like clockwork, as soon as one train pulls away, another quickly follows. Platforms are huge and spacious and most beautifully and ornately decorated denoting a historical scene or symbolising a remarkable event or famous person. The escalators carrying the millions of passengers into the depths and bowels of the earth are some of the biggest and longest in the world. At the bottom of every escalator, in a little glass box sits a grumpy looking guard, whose duty it is to look after their escalator. Normally elderly women, they sit in their little glass box day in day out watching the millions of people descend their escalator. If you misbehave, or sit down, or place your bag on the moving hand rail, they shout at you loudly over the loudspeaker, instructing you to stop doing whatever it was that you were doing and behave correctly. Like bloodhounds, heavily armed police mill around in small groups targeting anyone looking remotely like a foreigner; checking papers, passports and documents and eliciting illegal fines. A policeman’s normal wage is equivalent to around 50 UK pounds a month which is not enough to survive, even in Moscow, so the majority of their salary is made up from stopping people, checking their papers, finding something wrong - even if invariably there isn’t - and taking them to some dark and quiet place where they would demand money. No one wants to be locked up in a Russian prison, so almost everyone pays, regardless of whether their papers are correct or not. I had the misfortune of being stopped once, and was forced to pay a ten dollar fine. At first they demanded a hundred dollars, but after a little negotiation and bartering I managed to get them down to ten. Police target foreigners because they know they have fewer rights and genera
lly a lot more money than Russians, although during the summer they are instructed not to - it wouldn’t look good targeting tourists. But if you are a foreigner at any other time of the year it is almost guaranteed that you will be stopped, have your papers checked and quite possibly fined.

  At Chistye Prudy station I took the short walk to Turgenevskaya for the orange line to Alekseevskaya. The metro was packed and a sea of people flowed from one platform to another, and from one train to another. I joined the flow of bodies along the connection tunnel to Turgenevskaya station. From there I would only have four stops to Alekseevskaya and my hot bowl of borsch soup. I couldn’t wait. I hated this time of the day and all these people. After just a few short minutes you feel dirty and tired and long for the fresh air and open space, even though the fresh air was minus twenty and the open space was the centre of Moscow but anywhere, even the cold, was better than the crowded, hot, stuffy, dirty metro.

  I got off at Alekseevskaya and again followed the flow of people onto the escalator and up into the world above. The escalator led up to a small open area with kiosks selling flowers, magazines, medicines and cigarettes. In between the two rows of kiosks were the thick, heavy swinging doors that led outside. With every swish of the door an intense blast of cold penetrated the metro. People pulled down their hats, tightened their scarves and pulled up their collars as they left the warmth of the metro for the cold of Moscow’s streets. As I walked passed the kiosks towards the swinging doors something against the wall near the door caught my eye. I looked down to see a pretty dark-haired girl on a small wooden platform, arms outstretched, bare hands cupped. She could have been no more than in her early twenties and I could immediately see she had no legs and her torso was strapped to a small wooden wheeled platform with a thick belt. Lying next to her on the wet dirty floor was a wooden block with a handle. I was steered through the doors and out of the metro with the crowd, but I kept glancing back at this pretty girl staring up at everyone as they rushed blindly passed her, barely looking down.